Publishing for the second time was just as exhilarating as the first. What wasn't so exhilarating was refreshing my amazon page for the hours it takes the two versions of my book to link. I quickly feel like I've entered hell. But to the point: I made another book! It's so fine. What if you could save a world? But it meant betraying yourself. The stars press from above. The planet pulls from below. Two loves, two magics. Kaush is in agony. And Kausha wants out. The Imbalance has affected the planet Gamore, spreading death through her core, and Kaush fears he's the only one who can stop it. But this is World Magic, and using it breaks every law of balance that defines him. His past looms, in the form of friends and foes, showing an outcome he must avoid at all cost. But with new information comes the horrible truth of the Imbalance, and what Kaush must do to stop it. Torn between the stars he chose and the world that calls to him, Kaush feels each decision he makes taking him to an identity he doesn't know. But if he refuses to act, he risks the life of a planet. Kindle and Paperback! It took literally months longer to publish than it should have, but considering the unforeseen illnesses and broken bones, it's not totally my fault. Typing one handed is NOT FUN. And handwriting? Ha.
I have pinned all my hopes and dreams on July, and here's why. My phrase to sum up 2015, ever since February when my dog died and my cat got sick, has been "this terrible f***ing year". And it has only gotten worse. Like a book plot, it is the steady progression of bad to worse, only this is real life so there's no guarantee of a well-resolved ending. Ongoing family upheaval and dog death x3 being the worst in a long line. But even though the phrase to sum up 2015 is unchanged, though now in all caps, I've started correcting myself when it comes up. Because we're only halfway through the year, and I don't want to label the next six months. Just in case they're still undecided about whether or not they want to screw with me. Along with changing my phrasing to "those terrible last six months", I've also been trying to think of all the bad things that have happened as change, which I choose to label as bad. I'm still working on believing that one. Especially when change comes in the guise of villains with twirly mustaches. "There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so." I find it ironic that this was the year I started keeping a 'happy things' jar. I have dutifully recorded the happiest moments of my day for six months now, even when the happiest thing was the day being over. And I've noticed that on the hard days, when change occurred that I didn't want, the happy moments stood out stronger than on the days when I was generally okay or at peace. Don't get me wrong, those are my preferred days, but it reminded me that contrast is an important part of appreciating life. So, I am entering July with the expectation that the next six months could hold all matter of wonderful things. In the spirit of new beginnings, I'll be changing out my writing journal a bit prematurely.
Although I've been posting on my facebook and instagram, it occurs to me that since my last post here was in December, my website is looking rather forgotten. The reason is that things stalled a bit with the start of 2015. The year started out fantastically bad. A pet died, another got sick, and family drama happened. And those are only the worst. I'm pushing through and trying not to expect a new terrible development for March. Progress has been made. I finished the first draft of the second novella, and am working on editing. After complaining vehemently, I finally perfected the print version of The Imbalance, and even got Createspace to accept the upload. After petting a couple cover samples, I decided that I'll go with the matte finish. So. Soft. My current struggle is writing a half-decent blurb for the back cover. Writing about something you've written may be even harder than talking about something you've written. But then my cover will be complete, and I'll be ready to publish the print version! (the ebook isn't quite that close yet).