I like to think before I commit. Ponder the emotional ramifications, come to terms with them, and then proceed. So when I confirmed with Createspace that yes, I did indeed like this proof copy of my book, and they came back with "your book will appear in stores within three days" I was sent into a panic that really didn't subside until two days had passed. I had intended to publish it. This was my final product. But I sure would have liked to consciously make the choice. Typical of me.     It's quite thrilling to see it on Amazon. Some kind soul even gave it a review.